River Roland Anderson — 2 yrs Old Today 1/14/16 – MY ATTEMPT TO HEAL OUR FAMILY

I GOT TO TALK TO MY BABY RIVER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 MONTHS!!

MY HEART IS VERY HEAVY FOR MY SON, WHO IS NOW DEVELOPMENTALLY BEHIND, AND OVERTLY AND SEVERELY DEPRESSED…

I KNOW WHEN HIS DOCTOR SEES HIM—THAT IS IT—ADAM IS DONE—HE HAD BRUISES ON HIS FACE—AND HIS FACE WAS SWOLLEN—HE WAS TALKING LESS THAN HE DID 4 MONTHS AGO–

HE SAID “MOMMY” …AND I SAID…”I WANT YOU TO COME HOME RIVER”.

..AND HE SAID “NOW” REALLY LOUD….AND WAS HARDLY MUMBLING ANYTHING ELSE…

BUT HE KNEW WHAT I WAS SAYING—ADAM HUNG OF THE PHONE RIGHT AFTER SAYING IT WAS INAPPROPRIATE ….

FUCKING …WOW !!  I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT ADAM LEWIS–

BUT I WANT YOU TO SEE MY ATTEMPT AT HEALING OUR FAMILY TONIGHT BELOW IN THIS EMAIL DIALOGUE TO ADAM—HE NEVER WROTE BACK–BUT I KNOW HE READ WHAT I WROTE…

AND BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO SEE THE TRUTH AND NOT BELIEVE HIS LIES ABOUT HOW I TREAT HIM WHEN HE IS HORRIBLE TO ME…I KEEP TRYING … ALL I WANT IS A HEALTHY HAPPY FAMILY….A HEALTHY HAPPY CHILD.

Adam likes Lonnas Parenting Skills text

 

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EVEN THOUGH HE ABUSES RIVER AND I, BECAUSE I KNOW…WHAT IS COMING FOR HIM IF HE KEEPS GOING….HE IS NOT AS STRONG AS ME…AND HE WONT MAKE IT MENTALLY OR EMOTIONALLY….BECAUSE HIS ACTIONS ARE DOWNRIGHT CRIMINAL…

AND I HAVE NO CHOICE…..BECAUSE BETWEEN A MAN AND MY CHILD..

I WILL ALWAYS PICK MY CHILD— 100% EVERY TIME—

AND I WILL FIGHT FOR MY SON–NO MATTER THE OPPONENT.

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Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:52 PM

To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>

LET ME SAY GOOD NIGHT TO HIM

ANSWER ADAM

WHAT ARE YOU DOING???

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:54 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
JUST LET ME SAY GOOD NIGHT TO HIM, Please
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:55 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>

WHY DOES RIVER LOOK SWOLLEN??

AND YOU LOOK LIKE YOU HAVEN’T EATIN IN DAYS???
WHAT IS GOING ON???

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:55 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>

ADAM YOU NEED MY HELP…

SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT…

YOU ARE NOT WELL…

LET ME HELP YOU

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:55 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
WHY WONT YOU LET ME HELP YOU????

WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM??

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:57 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
WE NEED TO WORK AT CREATING A DIALOGUE….

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BE A GOOD FATHER OR HUMAN, UNTIL YOU LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF..

I CAN SEE YOU ARE NOT BONDING WITH RIVER EMOTIONALLY…

BECAUSE YOU HAVE CUT YOURSELF OFF EMOTIONALLY TRYING TO BE LIKE YOUR DAD…

ADAM….YOU LOOK SICK, LIKE UNWELL….LIKE HAVE YOU BEEN THE DOCTORS AND GOT A PHYSICAL LATELY??

 

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 7:59 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
ADAM…..SOFTEN ….PLEASE….DO IT FOR YOUR BABIES!!!

RIVER NEEDS YOU TO SOFTEN YOUR HEART…..HE NEEDS IT…..LIKE ITS DETRIMENTAL THAT YOU SOFTEN UP.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:05 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
TODAY IS THE DAY ADAM

ITS YOUR SON’S 2ND BIRTHDAY.

HE SAID HE WANTS TO COME HOME TO HIS MOM “NOW”

TODAY IS THE DAY YOU OPEN UP…..FORGIVE YOURSELF….FORGIVE ME….FORGIVE EVERYONE….

UNDERNEATH ALL YOUR BURIED AND HATEFUL FEELINGS……IS LOVE.

JUST LIKE RIVER, HE IS A BEAUTIFUL BEING OF LOVE….YOU ARE THE SAME UNDERNEATH ALL THIS CALLOUSNESS YOU HAVE DEVELOPED.

UNDERNEATH ALL THE CUNNING AND MANIPULATION YOU EXPOSE TO ME AND EVERYONE, AND YOURSELF…

IS WHO YOU REALLY ARE…..WHO YOU REALLY ARE IS WHAT IS BEAUTIFUL ABOUT YOU….NOT WHO YOU PRETEND TO BE—NOT ANY OF PERSONALITIES YOU PRETEND TO BE…..

I DONT BELIEVE YOU ARE INNATE CRUEL….BUT I DO BELIEVE YOU DEVELOPED THAT SOMEHOW OVER THE YEARS…

LETS UNPACK THIS PAIN.

ITS LIKE YOU ARE A BIG SCAB….LIKE SCABED OVER SCAR….ROUGH…CALLOUS…..

BUT UNDERNEATH, IS LOVE…..I JUST KNOW IT.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:08 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
I WANT TO HELP YOU GET WELL SO YOU CAN HAVE A LONG HAPPY LIFE WITH YOUR CHILDREN…

YOU NEED ME….

I DONT FEEL LIKE I NEED YOU..
BUT THAT COULD BE BECAUSE MY HURT FEELINGS….

AND I KNOW THATS PROBABLY NOT TRUTH.

I KNOW I NEED RIVER, WITHOUT A DOUBT. AND HE NEEDS ME

AND I THINK YOU NEED ME TOO…

AND THATS OKAY…ITS GREAT ACTUALLY.

THIS IS REAL FAMILY.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:13 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
YOU NEED SOMEONE TO SHOW YOU HOW TO LOVE…

EVEN WITH OTHER EMOTIONS…

YOU NEED THIS ADAM….I CAN FEEL IT….YOU WILL NOT MAKE IT THROUGH THIS YEAR WITHOUT ME, I DONT FEEL YOUR BODY IS WELL…AND I DONT FEEL THAT ANYONE ELSE REALLY CARES ABOUT YOU IN THE CAPACITY I DO….THEY CARE WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR THEM…AND THATS HOW YOU LOOK AT PEOPLE….

BUT ITS EATING YOU FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

SOMETHING IS WRONG IN YOUR BODY, I CAN FEEL IT….

AND YOU NEED TO GET WELL….NURTURE YOURSELF AND YOUR EMOTIONS..

I KNOW THAT IS HARD WITH BABY, AND THATS WHY I THINK THIS IS A GOOD TIME TO WORK THINGS OUT…

BECAUSE YOU NEED YOUR OWN SPACE TO DEVELOP, AND I NEED RIVER HOME….

AND YOU NEED RIVER ON THE WEEKENDS.
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:15 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
LOOK MY DAD DIED OF A HEART ATTACK AT 42…

I AM GOING TO GET AN ECHOCARDIOGRAM TOMORROW….BECAUSE I HAVE SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY HEART…

WE ARE BREAKING OUR OWN HEARTS……WHY???!!! WHY ARE WE DOING THIS???

OUR CHILDREN NEED US TO BE WELL AND HAPPY AND HEALTHY…..
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:16 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>

PLEASE LET ME SAVE YOU…

ILL LET YOU SAVE ME.

AND WE CAN SAVE RIVER TOGETHER.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:18 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
WE CAN WORK TOGETHER AS COPARENTS
I KNOW WE CAN.. WE JUST HAVE TO HEAL OURSELVES…OPEN….SOFTEN….LEARN HOW….TRY ….

JUST TRY IT.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:20 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
I AM STILL ANGRY AND REALLY HURT—AND REALLY CONFUSED BY YOUR BEHAVIOR…

BUT EVEN WITH ALL THOSE FEELINGS….

I AM WILLING TO DO THIS FOR RIVER.

PLEASE…..THIS IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GREAT MEN…AND MEDIOCRE MEN.

GREAT MEN LEARN TO LOVE.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:28 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
If you are on drugs…. i can help you get healthy again.

I have been juicing and running and yoga, trying to take care of my self during this really horrific time in both our lives.
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Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:32 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
I am learning a lot… but i am really learning ….that if you DON’T LOVE YOURSELF….the world will destroy you.

and i don’t know if you are strong enough right now to go through what you just put me through.

and if we don’t work this out—you will be FORCED TO ENDURE THAT…and i don’t think you are healthy enough to make it.

and i know you wanted me to die and break, and i know you wanted to destroy me….but you didn’t

–MY LOVE IS STRONGER THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD—LIGHT OR DARK.

I don’t want to take River away from you….but i do want him HOME with his mother 5 days a week.

and I want you to have him on the weekends. and we can work out other arrangements…
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:37 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
ARE YOU ASHAMED OF WHO YOU ARE ???
HOW YOU ABANDONED US FOR SELFISH IMPULSES AND SUPERFICIAL DESIRES AND GREED…??
DO YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU DON’T FACE THESE THINGS ON AN EMOTIONAL LEVEL….

YOU WILL JUST KEEP DOING IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER, WITH MANY PEOPLE, IN MANY DIFFERENT

WAYS….AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE ANYTHING IN YOUR LIFE WORTH VALUE.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:45 PM
To: adam lewis <leavnroots@yahoo.com>
DO YOU KNOW HOW YOU WORK WITH ENVY??
YOU UTILIZE SELF-LOVE….WHEN YOU FEEL JEALOUS OR ENVIOUS…YOU ACTIVATE STRONG SELF-LOVE AND IT KICKS IN…AND TAKES OVER

AND THAT JEALOUSY MIGHT TURN TO CURIOSITY OR UNDERSTANDING….

AND YOU WILL SEE THAT WHAT EVER IT IS YOU ARE ENVIOUS OF…YOU CAN LEARN TO DO FOR YOURSELF AND YOU FEEL THAT FEELING LESS AND LESS..

.BECAUSE YOU WILL GENUINELY LOVE YOURSELF…SO NO ONE, OR NO THING OUTSIDE OF YOUR OWN SELF– WILL REALLY COMPARE TO THE WAY YOU FEEL ABOUT WHO YOU ARE AND THE WORK YOU HAVE DONE TO BUILD YOURSELF UP….SO THERE IS NOTHING OUTSIDE OF YOU THAT IS WORTH MORE THAT THAT.
AND THOSE FEELINGS START TO DIMINISH IN YOUR DAILY LIFE.
I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE JEALOUSY FEELINGS WITH ME….OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES…

AND I FEEL THAT YOU COULD TURN THAT INTO SOMETHING THAT WORKS FOR BOTH OF US….

LIKE MAYBE APPRECIATION??

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:52 PM
To: Lonna Anderson <Thyme2heal726@gmail.com>

 

YOU ENJOY HURTING ME….BUT I THINK THAT IS BECAUSE I REMIND YOU OF ALL YOU COULD HAVE BECOME…

HAD YOU JUST TRIED.

BUT NO AMOUNT OF HURTING ME….WILL EVER REPLACE THE NEED AND EFFORT AT BUILDING UP YOUR CHARACTER..

IT ACTUALLY DETRACTS FROM YOUR CHARACTER, WHEN YOU GET OFF ON HURTING OTHERS.

THEY SAY SOCIOPATHY CANT BE HELPED….

BUT I DONT BELIEVE THAT….AND I AM VERY SMART WOMAN.

IT IS A SWITCH, A DECISION, LIKE QUITTING-SMOKING…
ITS SOMETHING YOU MAKE HAPPEN IN YOUR BRAIN, BODY AND BEING—GOING FROM CARELESSNESS TO EMPATHY.

YOUR SON IS VERY EMPATHETIC….LEARN FROM HIM, WATCH HIM AND LET HIM TEACH YOU HOW…

TALK TO HIM!! HE NEEDS YOU TO TALK AND EXPRESS YOURSELF TO HIM.
GIVE YOURSELF TIME AND SPACE TO DEVELOP AROUND WHAT I AM SAYING..

LET ME HAVE MY SON BACK, AND GIVE YOURSELF WHAT YOU REALLY NEED, THE SPACE AND TIME TO DEVELOP YOUR CHARACTER…AND I CAN HELP YOU FROM A DISTANCE, OR AS CLOSE OR AS FAR AWAY AS YOU NEED ME TO BE.
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 8:58 PM
To: Lonna Anderson <Thyme2heal726@gmail.com>
I SAID I WOULD GIVE YOU UNTIL TODAY…RIVER’S SECOND BIRTHDAY, TO TELL THE TRUTH.

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY…I HAVE THE HEART APPT I HAVE TO GO TO.

BUT I WOULD LIKE TO MEET UP WITH YOU AND RIVER AND TALK THIS OUT THIS WEEKEND.

–JUST THE 3 OF US.

I FEEL LIKE IF WE COULD COME TO AN AGREEMENT BY THIS WEEKEND, AND THEN PRESENT IT TO THE COURTS AT PRETRIAL—THAT, THAT WILL BE THAT–AND THE STRESS YOU FEEL WILL MELT AWAY.

Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com> Thu, Jan 14, 2016 at 9:04 PM
To: Lonna Anderson <Thyme2heal726@gmail.com>
I REALLY WANT TO SAY GOOD NIGHT TO RIVER…

CAN WE DO A QUICK GOOD NIGHT CALL ??
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com>
11:58 PM (0 minutes ago)

to adam

have you ever had anyone be this honest with you??

or try to connect with you this deeply??

does that scare you??

what is the contempt you have for me…??
because i try to make you a better man and father….REALLY??!!…you hate me for that??

Do you ask yourself these questions ever?? ….and reflect on the answers….

 
Lonna Anderson <thyme2heal726@gmail.com>
6:54 AM (0 minutes ago)

to adam
LeavnRoots….You need to need to leave your roots.

Leave your father…cherish your mother…and be your own man.

and bring me my son, so we can learn to coparent.

YOUR FATHER IS WHY YOU HATE ME….its all the shit he puts and reinforces in your head.

Your dad is the reason, aside from some of your own issues with me and insecurities in yourself, THAT YOU HAVE SUCH A DISDAIN for me and how much Self-Love and Self-Respect I hold Within me.

And this is all based on a false reality. You watch your father live so many lies, and you think that is what it is to be man.

To suppress your emotions, while being emotionally volatile and manipulative. That is your father in nutshell. You CANNOT

BE HAPPY THERE…i don’t believe you are. AND I KNOW RIVER IS NOT…

AND NOW YOU KNOW TOO —BECAUSE HE SAID IT TO BOTH OF US—THAT HE WANTS TO SEE HIS “MOMMY NOW”.

LISTEN TO YOUR SON. HE IS TELLING YOU HIS NEEDS. Soften up Adam. Give River the proper love and affection that is in no way inappropriate or violating to him.

Adam if someone hurt you growing up, if your father hurt you, that was not your fault, and your mother should have protected you, and it was from years of your father manipulation on her, that she didnt do the best job—he was doing the same thing to her that he is doing to you, did to you and your brother and sister….hes done that to your mom, and warped her mind to idolize him while he uses her for whatever his motives and agendas are..

This is NOT TRUTH OF LIFE ADAM…..Your family is NOT HEALTHY AT ALL. I have seen you PLUMMET AND REGRESS DRAMATICALLY SINCE LIVING THERE.

ANY POTENTIAL YOU HAD TO EVOLVE OUT OF YOUR OWN CUNNING AND MANIPULATIVE NATURE—YOUR FATHER IS TRYING TO SQUASH —-AND FORCE YOU TO BE LIKE HIM AND MAKE HIS MISTAKES.

YOU ARE TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME AND RIVER—THE WAY YOU ARE BEING MANIPULATED….AND HAVE BEEN SINCE YOU WERE A CHILD.

ADAM YOU WERE THERE—YOU KNOW THE REALITY YOU ARE LIVING AND HAVE LIVED.

AND YOU ALSO KNOW THE REALITY YOU TELL ABOUT ME IS UNTRUE…. How is living a lie going to serve you? or River? or Me? Or Anyone?

ITS NOT.
Adam, ITS TIME TO COME OUT THE CLOSET IN EVERY WAY IMAGINABLE.

Step Into The Light.

 

 

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